Right now I am experiencing a mountain top and a valley...all at the same time!! Three weeks ago, I had surgery on my foot. I have had plantar warts on the bottom of my foot for about 12+ years. I have needed to have them taken care of for so long, but I simply didn't want to deal with it or go through the pain. It had been giving me a lot of pain lately when I walk, so I decided it was time to take action. It is especially scary to deal with something on my foot since I have juvenile diabetes....healing is slower, infection is more prevalent, complications can arise, etc. This is where my "valley" comes into play.
I have had to stay off my foot for much of the three weeks because the pain is so intense....extremely hard to do with 3 kids, a house to run, and a real estate business!! I still cannot put pressure on my foot, which requires me to walk on my heel with a significant limp or walk using crutches. As a result, I am now experiencing pain in my back, legs, knees and heel. To top it all off, I have a sinus infection! I know I'm sounding like a total complainer, and I'm really trying not to be, but to be honest...I'm getting really discouraged. My hubby has been a wonderful help, my family has pitched in, and friends have been helpful, too...so for that, I am thankful. But, I just really want my normal foot back. We are supposed to leave for our beach vacation in Florida in 10 days and I am so nervous that it will not be healed in time. I am praying for God to heal this foot....quickly!!!!!
Enough of the whining...now onto my mountaintop moments!!! Through all of this, I have had to rely on the help of others and Gracie has been forced to cope with that. As a result, she seems to be developing another level of security that she previously did not have. Up until now, she has still not let anyone put her down for nap or bedtime, won't let anyone change her diaper or get her dressed, and Chris and I have not been able to leave her with someone else without sneaking out the backdoor. During the first full week after my surgery, my mom came over most every day to help take care of Gracie and I. During this time, Gracie learned to let my mom put her in her carseat, change her diaper, get her dressed, take her to gymnastics and.....put her down for NAP!!!! This is huge. I mean, really huge. The day they left the house for gymnastics, Gracie actually walked out the front door and said, "Bye, Mom". What a big moment for my little girl!!! I was so proud of her and SO happy for the door of security that she was walking through. The biggest accomplishment was that she let someone else put her to bed other than Chris or I....major, major accomplishment. Later that week, I had to go do some showings for work and Chris had to drive me (since I still couldn't drive with my foot). My sister-in-law, Stacie, came over to babysit and Gracie literally RAN out to her car to greet her! She waved goodbye to Chris and I and said, "Goodbye Daddy and Mommy". Stacie put her down for a nap and Gracie wimpered for a bit, but eventually gave in and did really great. Again, serious progress. I was just so proud of her and so hopeful that this would continue to be a building block of trust for her.
I know that all things work together for good...I believe that to be so very true.